Clarity of Life

By Von Dailey

The last few months has been very revealing for me. The clarity of my life and God’s purpose in my life are becoming clearer with each day. Recently I realized the full meaning of an encounter I had nearly 50 years ago.

Let me explain, my first vision occurred when I was 9 years old and it changed the course of my life. However, my pride kept me from realizing the full significance of that vision until just a few weeks ago. The revelation came as I was journaling and remembering how angry I was at 9 years old because my parents were divorcing for the second time. I remembered the rage and hurt boiling in me that if left to fester would have led to a very different life than I live today.

I’ve often wondered why Jesus came to “ME” and I thought it was to help me through a tough time but it was much deeper than that. Jesus saw that at 9 years old I was at a fork in my life of hate or love. My Divine purpose was a path of love but I was heading down the path of hate when He intervened. His visit changed the course of my life. He let me know I would be alright regardless of what my parents did. He let me know He cared about me and He had His eyes on me.

To briefly explain, I know extreme anger, it’s a long lost foe but I remember him. I remember the feelings that accompanied him, I remember the hate that he brought with him, I remember the feeling that nothing else mattered other than my anger. I was so angry that I just stopped talking all together. My mom or dad couldn’t fix me, and the doctor they took me to couldn’t fix me.

That’s why Jesus came to me, He’s the only one who could fix me. As I was journaling about that experience it hit me like a ton of bricks, Jesus saved me before I accepted Him. If you asked me before this revelation, “Do you have a God given purpose?” I would have answered yes. I know that and I can give you great examples in my life to prove it.

But now I have better understanding of why my life has been blessed beyond measure when it should have been, or very easily could have been, a wreck. I realized Jesus chose me, before I chose Him. I also realized that my pride kept me from that realization. Because of my pride I couldn’t see passed the obvious and it took nearly 50 years to “fully” understand why Jesus intervened in my life when He did.

I still struggle with pride, but I know my strength and authority come from Jesus. I’m thankful and blessed for His grace, mercy and humility that allow me to make mistakes and learn along the way and I know without a doubt He loves me.

In Christ,

Von Dailey